Winters in Wellington, summers in Europe, grand prix horses, Olympic medals – she seems to have it all. Why isn’t she happy? 

The perfect life we see on Instagram might not always be what it seems. 

If this sport is hard on the body, it’s hard on the mind too. The pressure to perform is intense, and the more competitive the environment, the harder it gets. Some people thrive on that but it can be difficult to manage.

And while we’ll gladly share our successes and when things are hunky-dory, we’re less forthcoming about our fears. We don’t discuss our fear of failure, fear of not being good enough, fear that we are going to let others down. We don’t share about the time we almost cracked under the pressure. We feel ashamed. And when everyone keeps sharing success-success-success-#blessed, we feel very alone. 

I wish it was easier to talk about our struggles. That more people we look up to did. Because when we hit that low, we have no idea what to do. We deal with it the best we can and hope it passes. 

But what if it doesn’t? Sometimes you have to be your own hero and lead the way.